Shima's Diary

im not feelin quite okie ryt now.. im sick n i have to face my family.. each one creates trouble.. argh! i wna talk to ney.. but he's bz studyin ryt now..

i have no close frens to talk too.. or to be precise, i dun have a bf anymore or yet? even though it's e second half of poly alrd.. well, frens come n go..

i missed deffany n sophie.. haiz. but dey got their own life.. i shld'nt bother dem..

just now i send an offline msg to afiqah on msn too.. but as usual, she didnt reply.. i dunno y.. izzit bcos she used to send me msgs but i didnt reply her? maybe.. cos just now i saw one of her pm.. but im not sure whether it refers to me.. i tink so cos if im not wrong, i once heard tat she kip on smsin me but i didnt reply her..

maybe.. cos a few mths back i cant sms due to my fone line being cut.. n she called me once n said tat im "sombong".. cos nvr sms or call her anymore.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. im just being "ignored"..

n e reason y i have been tryin hard in class it's bcos i have to make myself bz.. i got no real frens to talk too.. n ney is bz wif sch.. im close wif afidah - a fren i just met during cognitive ut workshop last mth.. but i dun feel we're realie close.. cos we onlie talk while in sch.. during break tyme we'll meet.. or after sch.. at home at nyte sometymes talk too.. talk abt her prob n sometymes, mine..

to me a realie close fren is someone who is realie close to u.. everyday.. everytyme when u got a problem, dey will noe instantly tat dere's sumtin wrong wif u.. u dun have to tell dem.. n maybe, dey shld be even betta den a bf.. dey must be caring.. willing to sacrifice anitin for u.. haiz.. i dun tink i will get a fren lyke tat.. i just missed my best frens.. haiz..

i used to be close to aishah to last tyme.. well, back den when i was still in sec sch.. we share tings between us only.. abt bf n sutff.. but now she has a own life too.. she's bz wif her sch.. n she got a bf too.. n her best frens.. so, yeah.. we just meet for ngaji onlie..

u noe.. my bf dun noe tat i have a blog.. well, not realie he dunno.. but i once told him abt it.. tis wan is made back den when i was still in sec sch wif my best frens.. maya made it for me.. i tink e link suits me alot.. "thelifeofasimplegurl".. it's abt my life.. n im just a simple girl.. hahas..

now im just talkin random.. one by one tings came into my mind.. im just blogging cos i have no one to talk to.. no one wants to hear my woes.. n besides, i dun tink i would be able to tell dem freely lyke how i am to u ryt now, blog..

alot of tings has happened to me recently.. i started ngaji back at e end of last mth.. wif my bro n aishah.. e place is realie far from my house.. me n my bro had to endure to n fro from dere..

den i started joining trekking too last tue.. well, it was kinda hard for me as i had not ran for almost a yr or more den tat.. i tink i last tyme i ran was last yr before Os maybe in july or sep.. hahah.. tat's y i got a difficulty on my first trainin last tue..

we ran until e back of rp.. to e back at admiralty park next to my sch.. oso, e place where ney n me had our first stroll during our first date to e musical at nyte last yr.. hahah.. it realie reminds me of old tymes.. den we ran back to koufu canteen.. but i managed to run until our starting pt.. i dunno y i stopped.. maybe im still not mentally prepared.. n e next few days, i ended up havin muscle cramps.. almost e whole body.. n now still have at my stomach dere..

n i tink tat's e reason oso tat i got a fever.. maybe cos i was too exhausted.. hopefully, tmw i'll be fine.. i cant skip class.. wasted.. i realie wna do well in class.. tis sem i wna try aiming for 3.5.. hopefully can, Insya-Allah.. last sem i got 3.2.. tis sem so far i had quite alot of As.. Syukur Alhamdulilah.. my hard work in class paid off.. tis wk i got back my 4As.. left marketing grade not out yet.. hopefully it's an A too.. Insya-Allah..

n my ut1 cognitive grade was out alrd.. i was shocked.. cos i got a D+.. 9/25.. hopefully, my 4 other ut1 grades r fine.. hopefully, i pass all of dem.. Insya-Allah..

im feelin much betta ryt now.. just now i was feelin so miserable.. angry plus sad.. yeah..

i feel blog is a gd ting.. cos in e future, i can come back here to see wat i had written.. im a bit forgetful.. tings will be easily forgotten in my head.. hence, i have to get it down somewhere..

erm, im sure tat ney will be disappointed in me cos i didnt tell him abt tis blog.. well, he dun lyke blogging.. but ney, i hope u'll understand y im doin tis.. sometymes, i nid a space for myself to let out my feelins.. im realie sorry if u happen to read tis ney.. i realie dun mean it.. haiz..

well, tmw sch starts back.. ut2 is ard a corner.. not long ago we just finished our ut1.. tyme flies realie fast.. ut2 first ppr is on 9 of dec.. which means ard 3 wks.. oh gosh.. im not ready for it yet..

n e worse ting, i cant take offs on wkends anymore.. cos i have to save up money.. for ut1, i only worked 1 day last half of the mth n i only got $28 plus for my pay last 2 days.. tat's y i cant take offs alrd.. tat's y oso i went to work just now.. despite havin fever at 37.9 degrees celcius.. n now i tink im feelin much betta.. still havin a slight fever.. Insya-Allah okie alrd by tmw..

Syukur Alhamdulilah too to Allah cos ney got to pay off his laptop alrd last fri.. $1550.. wow.. tat's realie alot u noe.. now he's left wif barely 10 bucks in his bank.. for 3 days wif tat.. oh gosh.. ney is realie very poor ting.. but he's realie a strong guy.. im proud to have a gd bf lyke ney.. he's money-conscience, protective but.. naughty.. hahah.. he's such a cute guy.. missed him alrd..

so yeah.. ney is saving up next for his driving license next yr.. he's gonna take straight when he turns 18.. he's aiming for 1000 bucks by apr next yr.. i dun i can.. cos i have to pay alot of tings.. my laptop, hp bills, concession, money allowance.. i tink i can barely save up 50 bucks.. but if i try in controlling my spending in sch, shld be can..Insya-Allah..

okie lah.. is shld be restin ryt now.. but i cant slp.. shld be bcos i ate a panadol extra which has caffeine at 3 just now.. den i planned to study.. but sumtin came up.. i couldn't concontrate.. cos of my family.. n i decided to blog instead.. nid someone to talk to but no one's free so yeah.. blog will do..

hahas.. okie lah.. i gtg now.. till e next updates abt tings tat has happened in my life.. thanks for hearing me out n being a gd listener..

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